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Tuesday, April 03, 2007

Anabaptist American anguish

I came across this daily writing from December 4, 1981 in Every War Has Two Losers:
Was there ever anyone who understood the anguish of still being subject to allegiances you have begun to distrust?

Nietzsche did.
I don't know about Nietzsche, but I can say that this has been a large part of my own life. My own patriotism has been put to the test more than once in my life, and I continue to claim that my allegiance is not to America, but rather to my own (non)resistant Anabaptist tribe. I claim that it is, though I sometimes doubt where my allegiances truly lie, since I am so entrenched in the world and in America, for better or worse.

In the end, and to answer Stafford's question above, I do "understand the anguish." Even if my allegiances are not always clear, I, like Stafford clearly did, still struggle with what it means to live in this nation as one of many who rejects its malignant ways.